A life of illusion.

A life that seems great. On the outside people see a happy guy. Always cracking jokes always outgoing but that is far From his reality. The truth is years of past pain small or big of been pushed down and packed away never talked about. I have learned to not deal with my feelings they have been disregarded by others so I learned to do the same. Often turning to alcohol to drown the pain for temporary relief. The darkness will grow the loneliness will grow and at some point you start to question why are you here. The sad part is from a male perspective it’s more acceptable to abuse alcohol than to talk about your feelings or mental state. It’s hard to escape the darkness. For me it is definitely a battle I continue to fight but I chose to fight and not give up. --- Support, Relief & Insight --- Seeking help was truly the first step. I never thought therapy would help me, but I learned to recognize trauma and that it is ok to be sad most importantly it is ok to talk about it and to share. It is the beginning of healing.